New Year's Resolutions!

This seems like a reasonable list to me!

The end of 2022 is upon us!

Hard to believe we're at the end of the 2022 already... what a shitty year it's been! Well, as per usual I have no plans to bring in the new year, I don't get out much these days so this picture is pretty damn accurate for me! I've made my peace with it though. I never could get a relationship to go the long haul and in reality I wasted most of my life away on all the wrong women. I'm heading into my older years alone and honestly it's not so bad. There are upsides to being alone. Less drama, less stress, and less worrying about all the BS that goes into being with someone. I don't miss all that. Really the only bad part about being single is the loneliness, the rest isn't so bad. Anyway, here's to another year come and gone... let's hope 2023 will be somewhat better!

Merry Christmas...

Christmas certainly hasn't been the same for me since many of my family members are gone now but I am trying to at least acknowledge the day regardless. Merry Christmas to you all. If you're lucky enough to have family around, treasure them. They are the real gifts in this life.

World of Warcraft: Dragonflight is now live!!

World of Warcraft's brand new expansion, 'Dragonflight' is now officially released to the world and as a WoW player I couldn't be happier. It's hard to believe that I have been playing this game for 18 years now! It still blows my mind when I stop to think about it. I'm thrilled about this new expansion because I have always loved dragons and that is the main theme of Dragonflight. From everything I have seen thus far, Blizzard have once again outdone themselves. All I can say is THANK YOU, BLIZZARD!! World of Warcraft has been a huge part of my life for almost 2 decades and I have loved every moment of it. I'm thankful that I've been able to play the game for this long. Here's to hoping I'm still around for awhile so I can keep playing! To my fellow WoW players out there, I say to you... It's go time! LET'S DO THIS!! See you in The Dragon Isles!

Goodbye October!

So long old friend! God willing, I'll see you again next year.

Happy 28th Anniversary to KoRn's Self Titled album!

Wow... KoRn unleashed their first album to the world 28 years ago to the day! I honestly cannot even begin to fathom my life without this record or this band being a part of it. KoRn has been such a huge part of my life in so many ways. They were always more than just a band to me. They have been the pillar I have leaned on for almost 30 years now and have become a way of life for me. They've literally been the soundtrack to my life. No matter what I was going through, their music was there to see me through it. No other band on Earth has ever touched the part of my soul that KoRn has. I have so much gratitude, respect, and thankfulness to the guys in KoRn (Past and present members included!). To Jonathan Davis, Brian Welch, James Shaffer, Reginald Arvizu, Ray Luzier, and David Silveria I just want to say thank you from the bottom of my heart for not just making music for the world but also for being the therapy that has got me through so much in my life and continues to help keep me going in this world. As Jonathan once said many years ago, I turn it right back around to you gentlemen and say: "I could have.. never lived.. if it wasn't... for you."

Hello October!

Glad I made it to see another October... All my life this has been my favorite month of the year. I miss getting out in nature and seeing the beautiful changing colors of the leaves. I just don't get out much anymore, but hey.. at least I'm still around! It could be worse.

First Day of Fall 2022

Today is the first day of Fall and even though I don't really get out much anymore, I still love this time of year. I always have and I always will. I'd like to get out and see some nature this year.. but not sure if that'll happen or not, we shall see.

Never Forget...

To all the men and women that lost their lives on this day 21 years ago... May you rest in peace. You are not forgotten...

I miss you, Momma...

Momma,

Well here we are again on the worst day of the year... The day I dread more than any other. It's hard to believe that five years ago today you left this world... I wish I could say that it has gotten easier for me to deal with that fact, but it really hasn't and I doubt it ever will. Losing you was the worst thing I have had to go through. I didn't just lose my Mom... I lost my best friend, my confidant, and the person I trusted more than any other. I truly treasured the bond you and I shared. Knowing you loved me is what kept me going. No matter what I went through or how bad things got at times, you were always there and had my back. I was so very lucky that I got to have you as my Mother. You will always be the greatest gift I ever had. While God and I haven't always seen eye to eye as you well know, I was at least always thankful to him for giving me you as a Mother... and I still am! I just wish he didn't take you away... I know we all have to die, It just sucks. Death will always be the part of life that I hate the most. It has always depressed me in knowing that everything has to end sooner or later. I feel like the grief of losing you will never go away, and maybe it's not supposed to. I read something awhile back that said: "Grief I've learned, is really just love. It is all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corner of your eyes, the lump in your throat and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go... Where there is deep grief, there was great love." I miss you more than you will ever know... Rest easy, Momma... I love you. ❤

- Your Son, Josh

Honoring the fallen...

To all of the brave men and women who are no longer with us, I honor you today. I can never fully express enough gratitude and appreciation for your sacrifice in defending this country. You are the real heroes and you have my utmost respect. Thank you...