I miss you, Momma...

Momma,

Well here we are again on the worst day of the year... The day I dread more than any other. It's hard to believe that five years ago today you left this world... I wish I could say that it has gotten easier for me to deal with that fact, but it really hasn't and I doubt it ever will. Losing you was the worst thing I have had to go through. I didn't just lose my Mom... I lost my best friend, my confidant, and the person I trusted more than any other. I truly treasured the bond you and I shared. Knowing you loved me is what kept me going. No matter what I went through or how bad things got at times, you were always there and had my back. I was so very lucky that I got to have you as my Mother. You will always be the greatest gift I ever had. While God and I haven't always seen eye to eye as you well know, I was at least always thankful to him for giving me you as a Mother... and I still am! I just wish he didn't take you away... I know we all have to die, It just sucks. Death will always be the part of life that I hate the most. It has always depressed me in knowing that everything has to end sooner or later. I feel like the grief of losing you will never go away, and maybe it's not supposed to. I read something awhile back that said: "Grief I've learned, is really just love. It is all the love you want to give but cannot. All of that unspent love gathers up in the corner of your eyes, the lump in your throat and in that hollow part of your chest. Grief is just love with no place to go... Where there is deep grief, there was great love." I miss you more than you will ever know... Rest easy, Momma... I love you. ❤

- Your Son, Josh

Honoring the fallen...

To all of the brave men and women who are no longer with us, I honor you today. I can never fully express enough gratitude and appreciation for your sacrifice in defending this country. You are the real heroes and you have my utmost respect. Thank you...

Happy Birthday, Momma...

Hey Momma... Today has always been one of my favorite days of the year because it was the day you were born. My Mother, my confidant, and my best friend. Thank you for giving me life, always being there for me, and showing me what real love is. I treasured the bond we had while you were alive, I treasure it still, and I always will. I love you, Momma... Happy Birthday. ❤

Happy Mother's Day...

Hey Momma...

Today is Mother's Day... This used to be one of my favorite days of the year, but has become a very difficult day for me to get through because you're not here. I can't believe you've been gone for almost 5 years now... I think I get through the days sort of lying to myself just thinking that we haven't spoke in awhile, that both of us have just been too busy, but in reality I know you're gone. It has never really gotten any easier to accept that fact, but I try to remind myself that a part of you is still with me. I remember what you told me when I was younger, that a day would come that you would no longer be here but a part of you would always be with me in my heart. I take comfort in that. I hope you always know that you were the greatest gift I ever had in this life... thank you for being my Mom and my best friend... I miss you so much... I hate that you had to leave... I just hope and pray that I get to see you again some day... I love you, Momma... Happy Mother's Day. <3

Love your Son,
- Josh

Revenge of the 5th!

Seems fitting for today... 🤣

May the 4th be with you!

To my fellow Star Wars fans, May the 4th be with you!

Happy Easter!

While I don't really celebrate holidays anymore, I will always and forever acknowledge the resurrection of Jesus Christ. Happy Easter, everyone! ✞

Happy Birthday, Grandma!

While you are always in my thoughts, I am thinking of you especially today, Grandma... I wish you were still here. I miss you more than you'll ever truly know. I hope that when my time comes I get to see you again one day... Happy Birthday, Grandma! I love you... ❤

Happy St. Patrick's Day!

While I don't really celebrate holidays anymore, I do however like to acknowledge a few of them. Today being one of those holidays. ☘️Happy St. Patrick's Day!☘️

Emotional night of unpacking...

Well since my most recent move is finally over, I have slowly started to unpack and get situated here in the basement where I am now living. I started going through my boxes and totes. These things have gone with me everywhere since my days of living in Florida in the late 90's! Some of this stuff I haven't seen in over 20 years! These boxes and totes have gone from one place to another with me throughout my many moves and were always in storage units, garages, spare rooms, or basements. It's been a trip looking through my things but I have to say last night was rather hard for me. I found so many old cards my Mom, Grandma, and Grandpa had given to me for holidays and birthdays. I found old pics of them as well. So many memories from years ago! I cried a few times. It caught me off guard but that's how it goes. I'm still very broken from losing them. It started with losing my Grandpa back in 2015 then 2 years later my Mom and 5 months after her my Grandma. It's just something I don't think I am ever going to get over or move on from. I'm thankful for the memories I have but I miss all of them terribly. It was just an overall really emotional night. As I continue to look through these boxes I hope not every time is as emotional. I'm not sure how much more my old ticker can handle, It's already messed up enough as it is... Here's to hoping the rest of the unpacking process goes smoothly!

Requiem is out now, and it's awesome!

TODAY IS THE DAY!! KoRn's new album 'Requiem' is out now! I have to say, having listened to it several times, I love it already! KoRn never disappoints! THANK YOU for another great album, gentlemen! This one is a banger for sure! 🤘😁🤘

Click HERE to listen to KoRn's new album!