Happy Birthday, Momma...

While I think about you all the time... It's days like today where I think about you the most... Happy Birthday, Momma... I love you. ❤️

Today marks the 8th Mother's Day I've had to celebrate without my Mom being here and it still doesn't seem real to me. This time of year used to be a happy time in my life... I got to celebrate my Mom for being the best Mom any kid could ever ask for... But now it's become a day of sadness for me because she isn't here anymore. Her absence has left a hole in my heart... I've really only felt like half a person since she passed away. The bond we shared was something I was always so grateful for... I'm thankful I got to have her in my life for 38 years... I just wish it could have been longer, I wasn't ready for her to leave... but then.. I don't suppose I ever would have been ready.. who ever really is? Death will always be the part of life I hate the most... I just hope that wherever she on the other side that she's at peace. I love you, Momma and I miss you terribly... For as long as I have left to live, I will continue to celebrate you on this day... Happy Mother's Day. ❤

It's that time of year again...

I used to love this time of year.. but now May and June both have become the worst part of the year for me... for obvious reasons. Coming up on 8 years of my Mom being gone now... still doesn't seem possible to me. I miss you, Momma... 😢

Happy Easter!

While I'm not the most religious person in the world, I do believe in God and his Son Jesus. I acknowledge what today is... HE HAS RISEN! To those of you that celebrate, Happy Easter! I hope you all have a wonderful day.

Welcome back, President Trump!

My morning coffee tastes better this morning than it normally does! I feel hope again as an American for the first time in awhile. I love knowing we're back to having real leadership again in America. Glad to have you back, President Trump! You Sir really are the best President I've ever known in my lifetime. I look forward to the coming 4 years. I believe you are right when you said this really will be the golden years of America! God bless you Sir and God bless America! We finally get to heal. What a great feeling that is!

Happy New Year!

Hard to believe 2024 is already over... to me this year really seemed to go by super fast. I suppose that's normal as we get older.. the years just seem to fly by at warp speed. I can't believe I'm 46.. just 4 years shy of 50! I'm getting old! I got grey in my beard, my vision and hearing are complete crap, I have aches and pains in my body, I don't sleep worth a shit, and I move around now days like I'm an 80 year old man! lol... Fun times! Hey.. despite things having not been very good the last several years.. I'm thankful to still be alive! (It's better than the alternative!) I've become a shut-in homebody that doesn't get out anymore. I just spend my time alone these days. No family, significant other, or friends around anymore. It's just me doing my day to day thing. It definitely gets lonely but I've at least come to a point in my life where I have contentment. I have a roof over my head, I have food in my belly, and a space to call my own. I want more out of life but I'm at least thankful for what little I do have! That's about all I have to say for now. Not that anyone reads my posts, but on the slim chance someone actually stumbles upon this blog of mine.. Happy New Year! Here's to hoping it's a good one!

President Trump is back!

After yesterday's election, I just want to give a big Congratulations to Donald J. Trump! It's damn good to have you back, Sir! For the first time in a long time, I have hope again for the future! America can finally start to heal.

I've officially been a KoRn fan for 30 years!

I've been with these guys every step of the way! What a journey it's been... so many ups and downs, highs and lows, but through it all? KoRn has been there and they have my eternal gratitude for it. I can never thank them enough for doing what they do. Their music has been the soundtrack to my life! I honestly wouldn't have made it this far in life if it wasn't for their music. I've lost count of the times that they were therapy for me during the really bad times of my life. As I've been saying for the last 30 years, KoRn is more than just music, they're a way of life! I'll be a KoRn fan til the day I die. To the members of KoRn, I just want to say THANK YOU!

First day of Autumn!

Even though I don't get out to enjoy nature anymore, that still doesn't change the fact that it's the first day of Autumn, which happens to be my favorite time of the year.

🍂Happy Fall, Everyone!🍂

World of Warcraft: The War Within!

The new World of Warcraft expansion (The War Within) has been unleashed to the public as of today! I always look forward to new expansions, it's what keeps this game alive and well. Hard to believe I've been playing for the last 20 years! Easily the most dedicated I have ever been to any game ever. It's more than just a game really... it's escapism, it helps keep me sane in an insane world, and even after all this time it still excites me. Thank you, Blizzard for creating this wonderful world. I am forever grateful.

In memory of my Mother... gone 7 years ago today.

Hey Momma... It's been 7 years to the day that you've been gone now... It still doesn't seem real to me. I pretty much just live in denial most of the time... I get through the days just sort of lying to myself and thinking we've both just been too busy to get ahold of one another, but deep down I always know you're gone. It hasn't really gotten any easier deal with. I've just become more secluded and numb to pretty much everything these days. I exist in my own little world... which is fine with me since the world seems to have gone batshit crazy anyway. What can I say besides the obvious..? I sure do miss you... I still try to remember what you told me while you were living... about how you'd always be with me when the day came that you left this world, but it's just not the same... I miss your hugs, your smile, your voice, and just having someone in this world that actually got me... you were really the only one. I'm not sure if you ever truly knew just how much you meant to me... I always tried my best to be the best Son I could be but I can't help but feel like I fell short in some ways. I hope you always know how much I will always love you... you are forever missed... I still carry the Kandi Rowe flag and keep your memory alive... I will for as long as I live... I love you Momma... Rest easy... ❤

Playing my song for you today... It says everything that needs to be said about you not being here...