Happy Birthday to me...

Well... today is my Birthday. My old ass is 47 now! It kind of sucks that I have to spend the day alone but It is what it is. At the end of the day, I'm thankful that I'm still here. With all the heart issues I've been having I think it's a gift all in itself to say that I made another trip around the sun. I think I'm gonna spend the day playing World of Warcraft. Special thanks to my Brother for hooking me up with the new WoW expansion! Love you, dude!

Thank you, Charlie... RIP

I'm currently watching the Charlie Kirk Memorial and I have been touched by the worship songs so much so that I am rededicating my life to The Lord Jesus Christ. It's time I go all in and stop riding the fence. I have always believed in God but I have struggled all my life where religion is concerned. I've gone back and forth so many times now that I've lost count at this point. I remember talking to both my Mom and Grandma when they were still alive about this and they said I can't be on the fence... I'm either all in or I'm all out. Well, today I am choosing to be all in! I'm far from perfect, but I love Jesus and I believe in him. I am choosing to trust in him and live my life the way he wants me to.

From this day forward I am going to try my best to live the life God wants me to live. After what I saw online from the far left mocking, laughing, and celebrating Charlie Kirk's murder, I finally realized evil is very real and it's not hiding anymore... It's right out there for all to see. It's not even about left vs right, it's about good vs evil! We are absolutely living in the end times and I chose to be on the right side of things. I chose the side of good! I just want to close by saying thank you to Charlie Kirk for inspiring me and renewing my faith... You lead the way, Charlie... Rest forever in the arms of our Lord Jesus Christ and say hi to my Mom, Grandma, and Grandpa up there in Heaven... I pray with all of my being that I am able to join them when it's my time.

RIP Ryno...

I woke up this morning to find out yet another favorite of mine has passed away... Ryne Sandberg was always my favorite baseball player and he passed away last night. What is going on? This week has been AWFUL for celebrities that I always looked up to. First we had Ozzy.. 2 days later we had Hulk Hogan.. now 5 days after that we have Ryne Sandberg... This week has SUCKED! I'm so tired of death... Rest easy, Ryno... Thanks for the memories!

Rest in peace, Hulkster...

Wow.,.. just two days after loosing my musical hero, Ozzy... now my childhood hero is gone... 2025 sucks... This man brought me so much joy as a kid and on into my early adult years. He remained as someone I always admired and looked up to. I hate this... all my heroes are dying... I'm so tired of death... All I can say is thank you, Hulk Hogan... you helped make my childhood better. I said my prayers and I took my vitamins! I was all in with Hulkamania. I get that Hulk Hogan was just a persona, but what a persona! You were the best that ever did it! Rest easy, Hulkster. I'm gonna miss you...

Rest easy, Ozzy... You will be missed!

Wow... this one really hurts. I just found out that Ozzy Osbourne passed away today. I'm really at a loss for words because this man has been my all time favorite singer for as long as I can remember. His music has been a huge part of what makes up the soundtrack to my life and I personally feel there is no one else that did it like Ozzy did it. Not only has his music meant a lot to me but it was also a huge common bond that my Mother and I shared together.. our mutual love of both Ozzy and his music. Since she passed away back in 2017, every time I'd hear an Ozzy song I would smile because it reminded me of her. His music helped keep her memory alive for me so he meant even more to me. Now he's gone... While I never knew him on a personal level, his music impacted my life in a huge way and I'm really going to miss him... Ozzy? Thank you for the wonderful music you gave to the world over all these many years... Say hi to my Mom for me up there, Sir... Rest easy, Ozzy... you will be sorely missed!

Talk about an end of an era...

Wow, so where do I even begin? Black Sabbath played their final show just a couple days ago and I've had to take time to process it. I felt now is a good time to share my thoughts. First of all, Black Sabbath are the originators of the genre of music I love more than any other.. Heavy Metal! They are the Godfathers and anyone that loves metal the way I do would know it's because of them that we have so many amazing metal bands to this day. So for that, they have my respect, appreciation, and admiration. Not just that.. but Ozzy Osbourne has been my ALL TIME favorite singer for most all of my life... not just that but he is the one artist that my Mom and I shared such a common bond with. ANY time I hear a song from Ozzy I always think of my Mother and as bitter-sweet as that is, I thank Ozzy for helping to keep my Mother's memory alive. It's really an end of an era... the pioneers of metal have retired and called it a day. While they have all absolutely earned the right to retire, it sucks that we'll never get to see them on stage again, but that's how life goes. Everything that has a beginning, has an end. I just want to say THANK YOU to all the members of Black Sabbath... especially Ozzy for creating the soundtrack to my life. There will never be another band like Black Sabbath... I guess all that's left to be said is: Don't be sad that it's over, be happy that it happened! Enjoy retirement, gentlemen... cheers!

Today makes 8 years that you've been gone, Momma... It's been a rough 8 years going on without you. Not a day goes by where I'm not thinking about you in one way or another. You're in everything I do... listening to music, watching tv shows or movies, or even when I just sit quietly alone as I do all too often. You left me with a lot of wonderful memories and I thank you for that. I thank you for being the best Mother any kid could ever ask for. I thank you for being not only my Mother but also my best friend in this screwed up world. I wish everyday that you were still here... I have lost count of the times I've wanted to just call you on the phone and talk like we always used to... There have been so many times that I've needed you but the reality of you being gone always slaps me in the face... it just doesn't get any easier and I really don't think it ever will. You were too big a part of my life for me to ever "move on" or "get over it"... Grief never really seems to go away and I think that's exactly how it's supposed to be.. I read something years ago that said: "Grief is the last act of love we give to our loved ones that pass away. Where there is deep grief, there was great love." and let's face it, you really were the great love of my life. You were the only one that ever truly had my back in ALL situations of life. You were always there... and I will never be able to thank you enough for that. I miss you every day, Momma... I really do hope when it's my time to cross over that we'll see each other again. That's really all I hope for anymore... I love you... always and forever. ❤️

Happy Birthday, Momma...

While I think about you all the time... It's days like today where I think about you the most... Happy Birthday, Momma... I love you. ❤️

Today marks the 8th Mother's Day I've had to celebrate without my Mom being here and it still doesn't seem real to me. This time of year used to be a happy time in my life... I got to celebrate my Mom for being the best Mom any kid could ever ask for... But now it's become a day of sadness for me because she isn't here anymore. Her absence has left a hole in my heart... I've really only felt like half a person since she passed away. The bond we shared was something I was always so grateful for... I'm thankful I got to have her in my life for 38 years... I just wish it could have been longer, I wasn't ready for her to leave... but then.. I don't suppose I ever would have been ready.. who ever really is? Death will always be the part of life I hate the most... I just hope that wherever she on the other side that she's at peace. I love you, Momma and I miss you terribly... For as long as I have left to live, I will continue to celebrate you on this day... Happy Mother's Day. ❤

It's that time of year again...

I used to love this time of year.. but now May and June both have become the worst part of the year for me... for obvious reasons. Coming up on 8 years of my Mom being gone now... still doesn't seem possible to me. I miss you, Momma... 😢

Happy Easter!

While I'm not the most religious person in the world, I do believe in God and his Son Jesus. I acknowledge what today is... HE HAS RISEN! To those of you that celebrate, Happy Easter! I hope you all have a wonderful day.