Happy New Year!

Hard to believe 2024 is already over... to me this year really seemed to go by super fast. I suppose that's normal as we get older.. the years just seem to fly by at warp speed. I can't believe I'm 46.. just 4 years shy of 50! I'm getting old! I got grey in my beard, my vision and hearing are complete crap, I have aches and pains in my body, I don't sleep worth a shit, and I move around now days like I'm an 80 year old man! lol... Fun times! Hey.. despite things having not been very good the last several years.. I'm thankful to still be alive! (It's better than the alternative!) I've become a shut-in homebody that doesn't get out anymore. I just spend my time alone these days. No family, significant other, or friends around anymore. It's just me doing my day to day thing. It definitely gets lonely but I've at least come to a point in my life where I have contentment. I have a roof over my head, I have food in my belly, and a space to call my own. I want more out of life but I'm at least thankful for what little I do have! That's about all I have to say for now. Not that anyone reads my posts, but on the slim chance someone actually stumbles upon this blog of mine.. Happy New Year! Here's to hoping it's a good one!

President Trump is back!

After yesterday's election, I just want to give a big Congratulations to Donald J. Trump! It's damn good to have you back, Sir! For the first time in a long time, I have hope again for the future! America can finally start to heal.

I've officially been a KoRn fan for 30 years!

I've been with these guys every step of the way! What a journey it's been... so many ups and downs, highs and lows, but through it all? KoRn has been there and they have my eternal gratitude for it. I can never thank them enough for doing what they do. Their music has been the soundtrack to my life! I honestly wouldn't have made it this far in life if it wasn't for their music. I've lost count of the times that they were therapy for me during the really bad times of my life. As I've been saying for the last 30 years, KoRn is more than just music, they're a way of life! I'll be a KoRn fan til the day I die. To the members of KoRn, I just want to say THANK YOU!

First day of Autumn!

Even though I don't get out to enjoy nature anymore, that still doesn't change the fact that it's the first day of Autumn, which happens to be my favorite time of the year.

🍂Happy Fall, Everyone!🍂

World of Warcraft: The War Within!

The new World of Warcraft expansion (The War Within) has been unleashed to the public as of today! I always look forward to new expansions, it's what keeps this game alive and well. Hard to believe I've been playing for the last 20 years! Easily the most dedicated I have ever been to any game ever. It's more than just a game really... it's escapism, it helps keep me sane in an insane world, and even after all this time it still excites me. Thank you, Blizzard for creating this wonderful world. I am forever grateful.

In memory of my Mother... gone 7 years ago today.

Hey Momma... It's been 7 years to the day that you've been gone now... It still doesn't seem real to me. I pretty much just live in denial most of the time... I get through the days just sort of lying to myself and thinking we've both just been too busy to get ahold of one another, but deep down I always know you're gone. It hasn't really gotten any easier deal with. I've just become more secluded and numb to pretty much everything these days. I exist in my own little world... which is fine with me since the world seems to have gone batshit crazy anyway. What can I say besides the obvious..? I sure do miss you... I still try to remember what you told me while you were living... about how you'd always be with me when the day came that you left this world, but it's just not the same... I miss your hugs, your smile, your voice, and just having someone in this world that actually got me... you were really the only one. I'm not sure if you ever truly knew just how much you meant to me... I always tried my best to be the best Son I could be but I can't help but feel like I fell short in some ways. I hope you always know how much I will always love you... you are forever missed... I still carry the Kandi Rowe flag and keep your memory alive... I will for as long as I live... I love you Momma... Rest easy... ❤

Playing my song for you today... It says everything that needs to be said about you not being here...

Happy Birthday, Momma!

Though I think of you every day, it's days like today that you're on my mind the most... I miss you Momma... Happy Birthday. ❤️

Happy Mother's Day, Momma!

Hey Momma... Another year has come and gone... It's hard to believe you've been gone now for almost 7 years. It just doesn't seem possible...While this day makes me sad because you're not here anymore, I try to remember that it used to be a day I always looked forward to because it meant that I got to spend the day with you and show my love and appreciation for you being the best Mom that any Son could ever ask for. I miss being able to spend time with you.. I miss our talks and I miss being able to laugh with you like we always used to. We always got each other, we had the same humor and I love how we could just be ourselves together. It's really the only time I ever truly let my guard down and was just able to be myself. You were so much more than just my Mom, you were my best friend and I can't thank you enough for that... Thank you for the love you always showed me, thank you for being there for me no matter what. Thank you for always having my back and being the amazing person you always were... I'm thankful we shared such an incredible bond with each other for the 38 years I got with you... I love you, Momma... I always will. ❤️ Happy Mother's Day!

Happy Birthday Grandma!

While I always miss you, on days like today you are missed even more... Happy Birthday Grandma... I love you. ❤️

Happy Easter to anyone that stumbles upon this blog.

While I don't really celebrate holidays anymore, I still acknowledge what today is... Happy Easter, everyone.

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year, everyone! I've never been big on New Year's Resolutions because let's face it.. most people never follow through with them. This though? I think I can manage.